Scary Facials

Okay, this is week 3 and my facial issues have been driving me crazy. I haven't been getting out much because of this horrible experience with a facial I had 3 weeks ago. My face broke out worst than it ever had before. I'm talking blisters, pimples, peeling...the whole nine-yards!
It's left me no choice but to be like a hermit for these last 3 weeks. Only a few choice friends have seen me like this...and a few complete strangers I have met from online or just at random.
This medicated cream stuff has my face looking like plastic at night. This is the strangest thing I've ever undergone for the sake of beauty. I'm thinking of getting waxed and pedicured next week. I've also been undergoing mouth reconstruction in order to take on caps to make my smile perfect. This is going to be a long, painful and drawn-out process that requires a lot of time and decation. I cannot turn back once I begin, and I've already begun.
Hmmm...I guess I've been really focusing on how I look a lot more this year. I have never looked bad. Never thought that I'm not attractive...don't have issues about how my body looks either. So why the sudden urge to look pristine? I guess it's because I'm working on everything else...things on the inside...why not also my appearance? I've been wanting to do these things for a while, but of course, I didn't have the money or the time before (for my appearance of course). The changes on the inside I've had the time, just not the patience or the desire to change until now. I know that no one is perfect or will ever be, but there's plenty that anyone person can find within themselves on any given day of their lives that they could and should change. Sadly, most people don't care and don't change. I don't think I'm any better for making this a focus of mine, but I do believe that it sets me apart. I don't know if this is why I've had a strange phenomenon going on where every lesbian I have met lately in attempt to make some lesbian friends has wanted to "get with" me, or what...I am having a hard time with this. Is it a full moon, perhaps??? Do I need to focus on how I'm coming off to people and maybe tone down my out-going personality? What's the deal???...I will have to work this one out.
Anyways, school started back up this week and it's obvious I'm not going to get out much during the weeks. Although, I do have more free time than I ever had before...since I don't have a job for the first time since I was 14. I'm really tempted to go back to work. I miss it. I can't stand not having a job. The only complication with that is how I'm still undergoing the mouth reconstruction and it's going to take about 10 more months to complete it all. I don't want to have explain what's going on in my mouth to employers as I'm undergoing these changes.
I'll have to give it some more thought and then decide on this job thing.
I'm sure I can find an employer that's not going to mind, though. I think that perhaps my fear is that I need to start looking for a job that is going to set me up in the future, rather than just meet my current needs. I need something that's going to be challenging, professional, and worth my time.