Nerves

Lately I've been nerve-wrecked for no apparent reason. It's all in my head.
A certain person comes to mind. Bad encounter after bad encounter after worse encounter after worst!
It's not a mystery to me why I feel uncomfortable...I guess I'm feeling like perhaps I was not as kind or as sensitive to her feelings and somehow I'm getting a little paranoid that this Karma is going to quickly find its way back to me...
What IS a mystery to me is howcome my normal, intellectual self doesn't over-ride it this non-sense. I am new to this paradox.
I don't know...this is all just random analyzing. I don't think I'm going anywhere with this entry other than to say that I think that I need to stop being so cynical and start being the kind and compassionate Nicole that I once knew myself to be. Fuck that I allowed myself one time to be a door-mat to someone...I can't just become this cold-hearted snake of a bitch to everyone because of ONE person!