I decided to start this blog so that I can freely express the changes I'm undergoing. It's almost been a year since I told at least some of the world that I'm gay. That was the most critical moment of my life so far. Never have I felt more vulnerable or more exposed in my whole life. This was critical because since then, I have gradually openned up more and more. Up until recently, I found myself incable of really experiencing love. It has taken me a lot of time to realize that was because I was afraid of truly being judged for who I really am.
Yesterday, and the day before, I watched the fireworks display in utter amazement. All around me were dozens and dozens of Americans freely celebrating their independence and freedoms. But for the first time, still not being an American myself, I celebrated my independence and my freedom. Also for the first time, I stood there in admiration and pride for my sacrifices and those sacrifices of all those that went before me to defend the freedoms in this country.
The tears filled up my eyes and poured so heavily, and the pride welt up in my chest. I cried uncontrollably in-front of an astonished lesbian couple.
I privately gazed at those two and then at the fireworks and thought to myself: That is what it means to be truly FREE!
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